Timothy Bloom - 'Til The End Of Time ft. V. Bozeman

this is beautiful in every possible way a music video and piece of art can be beautiful.

there is some artistic nudity so it's NSFW, but i'm completely in love with this video.

I'm a Bad Motha-! - Shut Yo' Mouth!

I'm a mommy! This is of course the focus of much of my writing because it is the focus of most of my life. I'm having a ridiculously interesting time at mommy-hood and I'm finding parts of it to feel like an extention of pregnancy.

For example, people feel compelled to offer advice, old wive's tales, related stories.... hell, people just want to talk to you! I feel like the world's most neglected prom queen (I say neglected because 1. things like my personal hygiene often take backseat to things like 'tummy time' and diaper blow-outs and 2. no one is paying attention to me for me, it's just because I'm toting this pretty ass baby boy who stares at people intensely with dark grey and brown eyes that melt even grown men like butter.). I got a lot of this when I was pregnant and for some reason I thought it would end when I was not pregnant anymore. I wouldn't have to nod my way through another rendition of "When I/my sister/my best friend/my sister's mother-in-law's coworker was pregnant I had the worse (insert random dignity demolishing bodily function here)!!! What you need to do is (insert random OTC/backwoods/voodoo remedy here)!" Now it's changed to; "When I/my sister/my best friend/my sister's mother-in-law's coworker had my first baby, my baby had the worse (insert random bizarre or disgusting baby bodily function here)!!! What you need to do is (insert random OTC/backwoods/voodoo remedy here)!" And don't get me wrong, a big chunk of these stories and antecdotes have come in handy.... and many have not.

Beyond all of that, I'm learning about the mommy that I am because of the mommy my baby needs me to be. We're shaping each other and giving each other what we need to smile and grow everyday.

And I'm learning to do a remarkable number of things with one hand!

Every now and then I have my moments of doubt, but I always remember something- I am not a fearful person, I make wise and brave decisions and I trust myself. I can always take a deep breath and remember; I'm a BAD MOTHA!

Bad Moods and Mad Shade

Misery does not always need company.  

Steps In Faith

"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step." - Martin Luther King, Jr.

and because you know the deepest me

To that one who knows me, all of me, more than anyone else ever has or will.

crash

We all can't bear the scrutiny of modern day society; the need to maintain false appearances and even more fake relationships can be too overwhelming for some. We all can't keep it together all the time.

Lately

This particular poem I wrote while I was really in love with someone and I wasn't sure how mutual the feeling was. Everyday that I spent with that person I was thinking of how I could reach out to them in some profound way and not just make them realize my love, but how much they really loved me.

what have i become-

The anger and hatred for another human being, that can grow and mutate in your deepest core like a tumor, and chip away at your very senses. You let it permeate until you can barely speak and you honestly believe that any actions you take against this individual would be justified.

Snaps and Breaks

We all have our faults and our nasty little character traits that life teaches us are either endearing little quirks or horrible personality flaws. While I am sure I have some cute quirks that have come to endear me to others, I also have one horrible personality flaw.

I'm bored, I'm a bitch, and red's a good color on me.

Picking fights with myself just isn't as much fun as it used to be...

shining contradiction

The passing confusion of a self-esteem built on a fading facade.

knew ya ears

The new year tends to have a universal effect on people. It tends to be a time of personal reflection and task-setting, high hopes, and shortly after, fallen aspirations. We generate a grandiose ideal of what we will be and achieve in the coming year only to dissappoint ourselves with short-lived successes and catastrophic failures. Are resolutions and unattainable goals a necessary way of life?

my sexuality is mine

There are two sides to every coin. While we need to continue to teach our young girls the lessons of modesty and being a proper young lady, we also need to teach our young women to be secure and empowered by their femininity and the wonders, and sometimes dangers, it beholds.

how would i know

This poem is for the long lost, but never forgotten friend. That friend that might be far away in distance but never far from my heart.

The Second Time I Lost My Virginity

Better than the first time? Can a second time actually be so much better than the first time, that is just kind of knocks the first time out of the running, sort of by default? Oh, I do believe so.....

Rediscovered

The birth of new love in a new relationship! Two people realizing that they've been through similar traumas in life and dramas in love and though it may have taken a while, they found each other, and now they are starting to find themselves.

Paradox

Are we meant to take in the experiences of life and accept them as inevitabilities, fates spiraling out of our control, or do we fight the powers that be in an effort to blaze our own trail? Are we even meant to know the answer?

My Girl

A tribute to the beautiful bonds of sisterhood and best friends eternally; that kindred spirit that feels like your second brain, heart, and soul.

Jigsaw

That moment of irrational fear and desperation when you analyze your present place in life and think, "Oh, shit, now what the hell am I supposed to do!?!" That's 'Jigsaw'

Introduction

Empowered and self-actualized Woman, proud and true! This piece is spoken in the voice of all women, as a brief reminder that no matter what your background or personality, you should always come correct.